Wow I have no idea where to start with this post. This March Runfessions is on a whole new level of crazy. Linking up with Marcia and the crew today is definitely a cathartic way to deal with so many of the emotions I am having right now. So here goes, let’s do a true runfessions.
Runfessions on a whole new level
I Runfess…
I have no idea where to start. Some days I feel like I have it all together and know that I can do this. That we can do this. Other days, I am filled with so much fear and anxiety and uncertainty. I worry about how I am going to protect my children. I remember feeling similar emotions after 9-11 and also during the DC Sniper incidents.
I Runfess…
I never imagined I would ever be in a situation where I could not buy toilet paper. I literally traded my son’s old bike to a friend for 6 rolls of toilet paper. Not sure who got the best deal there! I traded another friend a pack of hand wipes for a few rolls. Too soon for Memes?
I Runfess…
Daily workouts and runs are keeping me sane right now. While I miss my friends terribly, I am making the most of trying out new workouts and mixing things up. I feel more relaxed when I am working out at home but at the same time, I need and crave fresh air. When I go out for my runs, it’s so eerily deserted and quiet. I almost feel like I am in some bad horror movie where everyone can see the “boogie man” behind me. When I actually do see another person, we both have this look of fear in our eyes. I feel a mixture of fear and exhilaration at the same time. Does that make sense?
I Runfess…
Finding new ways to be social while social distancing is challenging but doable. I am encouraging my MRTT group to share their daily workouts with new weekly threads. I have set up a new FB page for my Girls on The Run group to engage and share their physical achievements. I have a few more fun ideas on how to stay connected that I will be sharing soon. Maybe there are some good things that can come out of this.
You are doing great by motivating others to keep up with their daily workouts and by creating a virtual platform for them to share their achievements.
This is so important right now. People like you take on a very vital role.
Keep it up! The girls need you!
Thanks Cat that means a lot. Sometimes it just get overwhelming. I am feeling better today
OMG, I have the same experience on my trail runs! I swear I see people in the woods when I’m running…lol.
Yesterday was a really sad day for me–and then my texted me, you messaged us, other friends texted me. You’re right, maybe there will be some good coming out of this.
Hang in there, friend. We’re in this together. And I’m just a text away…
We are in this together. So looking forward to “seeing” you all next weekend. Just have to take this one day at a time
It’s definitely not too soon for memes, they are giving me life right now! Humor is needed in these times.
Unrelated to running but I’m listening to a podcast about the DC Sniper and I can’t imagine how scary that would’ve been so soon after 9/11. Since I was young then, I had no idea the DC Sniper was even an event in history here. I saw something that said this time will be our generations 9/11 since we were too young to fully grasp the effects of the attacks and remember a before and after time.
I think that was so smart to set up a Facebook group for your GOTR team! They probably appreciate it so much.
My kids were really young during 9-11 and Sniper situation. We actually left DC and took them to Disney for a few days to escape the Sniper stuff. If only we could do that now!
I runfess when I’m running on my trails I think of Hunger Games and where I’d hide…
Were in such an altered universe right now. Hang in there and thanks for linking!
It sure does seem like a bad horror movie!
Glad the true runfessions helped. That’s one of the reasons I love writing. It’s freeing, getting all those feelings out in the open. Plus, this is a very supportive, positive group of running bloggers here. Safe space!
I’m glad I have Bill to run with right now – especially trail runs. It would be creepy going out there alone.
Stay safe out there!
We are a supportive bunch and it felt good to get off of my chest
For the most part I’ve stayed fairly calm. I can’t control what will happen, and worrying about it doesn’t change it. I don’t have kids, of course (but I do have a 92 yr old mom).
I have always gotten on Mr. Judy for his habit of buying TP long before we needed it (it’s a storage issue, we don’t have a basement or oodles of closets. Look who’s having the last laugh now!
Yes that sure was smart planning!
Thanks for sharing. You captured some of my fears exactly. I’m super social and this is a challenge. I do think it will have some unexpected silver linings… like reconnections with many friends and getting rid of things that don’t serve us “on the other side.” I did find a 6 pack of double charmin at Walmart – it was like getting in the London Marathon lottery (not that I’d know!)
Ha I know the little things are now the big things!
That Lionel Richie meme is so funny! Luckily we were able to get a 20 pack of toilet tissue last week so that will last us for a while. If we didn’t find that we’d probably be screwed right now as the stores STILL don’t have any!
Totally know what you mean about the wave of emotions on different days. Last week I was like “We got this!” and this week I’ve really been struggling. I know that this to shall pass so we just have to wait it out.
Yes the emotions are all over the place. I am trying to hold it together for the kids though
This is such a great unknown for all of us, and the best we can do is to stay as positive as possible. I know, not as easy as it appears on paper. We have five bathrooms, so we’re not hurting for TP (especially since it’s just the hubs & myself) LOL Hang in there, Deborah <3 This will end, and we will all be so much stronger for enduring it. Hugs!!!
I had a rough few days feeling better today thanks!
Not too early for memes at all – these made me chuckle and laughing right now is so important.
I love the way you described seeing others on your runs because I’ve been feeling the same way – that odd mix of relief and panic.
This past week, in particular, was an exhausting roller coaster of emotions…it does remind me of living in NYC after 9/11 and that uneasy feeling of being in uncharted territory. We will get through this! Hugs to you my friend!
Hugs right back at you! Felt good to get this out
Wow, that’s funny that you had to make a trade for toilet paper! I’m with you on the anxiety. I’m just trying to breathe through it and control what I can but it’s tough. That’s a great idea about the facebook group for keeping connected.
It was a new one for me! Got my delivery today of TP 🙂
So we had just gotten our Amazon pantry order before this had all hit, so our toilet paper stocks were on point. Now, the shelves seem to be better supplied, so I’m not worried about that.
Times are weird. Weird. Weird. Weird. I have my fingers crossed that everyone comes through this ok.
Times could not be weirder. Just got my TP delivery today all good on that front
I’m doing OK, but feeling bad for my kids, who aren’t as used to working at home and had just gotten into good grooves of exercising at gyms. I understand why they don’t want people on playgrounds, but the closing of the parks and parking lots at trailheads really bums me out. I can run in my neighborhood, but not everyone has that option. We wanted to do something outside with my son today, but I don’t think there are any options — I’m avoiding the crowds at the WO&D. I made myself do yoga today and the intention was “contentment” — that’s usually not hard for me, but it sure is today. Looking forward to when we can do yoga together!
Yes all of this is certainly a huge change for all of us.I am glad that I can run near my house it’s just super hilly!
Someone REALLY needs to make a collection of all the “things I did/traded for toilet paper.” We have to laugh with all the other dark elements going on.
And 100% completely yes on not knowing where to start. Some days I think we as a society are going to be OK — others i’m not sure we’ll get through the day. Not worried as much for me personally but friends, family, colleagues. I wish I could wrap everyone in a bubble and keep them same, but we can’t..
I know I telling my husband something similar about taking care of the kids and not wanting to let them out of my sight
Right now I really wish south Florida (Mom & Bob) was much closer to New York, although we did tell them to linger down there as it’s safer than here
I hope so!
I’ve been thinking about you and having to distance yourself from your run crew. What crazy times. I’m glad you are still getting outside and getting some runs in. At least it’s some version of normalcy. Stay healthy!
Yes I am trying to stay on my schedule and create some normalcy.We may all come out of this a little stronger fingers crossed